updates

Guess i have spent like months with out writting anything at all, why i do not have a particular reason but i have just been busy. A lot has happened in the past few months , i might not even remember everything, but it is almost the rainy season and all the farmers are getting ready to plant their crops.

Work is going on with my women that i work withand i will meet them again the end of this month. We have a village bank and it is amazing to see these women come to the bank all the time to get loans, they are farmers but they are not afraid to get the loans and i have seen lives improve so much. Guess if we want change in africa, we should empower the women first , that is the way to go.

Last time i went to an HIV clinic and i saw 100 children who were positive and they had already started taking their Antiretrovial medicine , i wondered at what was happening in this country , such is a big number and they all looked calm and had accepted what ever life had given them.It hurt me so much i just did not know what to do, God we surely need a miracle , i pray that you heal all those children.

what should i say!

blogging, its been a long time! why! i dont know! life has been a little bit upside down, got sick with malaria, had busy days and had fun working with women and children, thats what i do for life. Amazing how small things change people's lives and how they appreciate the little things that you do for them, i have been busy selling baskets made by women here and at the end of the day, i will give them back the money, you should see the smiles on their faces and the questions they will ask, is this my money and you go , yes! , what are you going to do with the money , she replies , i will take my child to school or i will take them to hospital or buy them a cup of milk, these are things that we take for granted at times, but they matter a lot.
Or the smile of a child when you tell them that you now have some one to help pay school fees for you, the relief they get is not imaginable any where else, those are the things that matter most in life.
am now in masaka full time and i surely miss my friends, church and family but i have a family here that love me and cares about me a lot.

God's ways and life frustrations

The past few weeks have not been that easy for me, my friend lost a son and he died in his sleep. life is so short you never know whats coming next, that makes me wonder why we spend so much time working and yet we will leave everything. God rest his soul in eternal peace , hope to see you again some day and may he strengthen us your mums so much and may he bless us with other children that look like you. we love and miss you so much.

This week not good at all, a lot happening, have you ever wanted to say something so much but then you can not say it because when you tell people you are scared they will not keep it to them selves, thats the life i live right now, God knows how long this will have to be .
Have you ever wanted things t to change so much in life but then they do not? what would you do?
God keeps on blessing me with new friends everyday and they are really interesting people. i have a room mate who is actually not my room mate but i do not like calling her name, i have AK 47 who is so interesting and the list goes on and on

Thoughts

i usually take long to write , i dont know why, i guess i got no reason not to. ihave spent the past few days wondering why we do not appreciate the little things in life or the fact that we are that person who we are. Here am praying to God to give me a miracle about something a friedn might think is so obvious but thats life.
Too much has been happening and it makes me question why we human beings do not accept that things are wrong at time and them instead we become over protective, eventually it costs us so much that we later regret in life. people do make mistakes in life but if we dont forgive them , them why do we want to be forgiven, funny how we pray forgive us to God and we do not forgive others.
Am a kind of person who deosnot like being too dependant and too me if that happens it sucks! so i think with time to come will have to figure out some things

Life

i know i have taken so long without . sometimes you just dont know what to say to people and you wonder what you should say but then you have no answer.
it is the rainy season and oh God! there are soldier ants everywhere i just hate those tiny creatures they really suck!
i was able to spend time at church with my kids and my family at church and it was the best time i have ever spent in my life. You just cant imagine what joy i have seeing my kids move form another class and then when they see you they still remember you and say they have missed you, to me thats worth living for and loving people every day.
Life has been good and God too, he has done great things ! am singing !

Reflections

i have not written for the past weeks not because i do not want but sometimes you have to give up on somethings to gain others.
i have been busy with the women empowerment project and we are trying to set up some project that are sustainable . Very soon they are going to start a micro-lending initiative of their own, call it a small Grameen Bank. You dont know how a bank intimidates a rural woman and the fear of borrowing money from the bank but they are so excited with this idea and i cant wait to get it running.
I have been thinking of what drives me to do certain things for people and i realized its not because of me but it is the passion and compassion that God put inside me.
i have seen how love can even change the hardest of people and yah! some times it frustrating especially when you can not accept the facts about life .
i have also realized that i have responsibilities now and yah! its time to grow up , thats the way things run in africa, we grow up so early and the troubles of life wear you out so much but am not complaining .

God's amazing work in me

i know i have taken so long with out writting, not because i have nothing to write about but because i have had alot happening in my life. A m also trying to deal with some of my friends leaving which is hard becuase i will never see them again.
Lat week i had a very distrubing incident and one thing i have learnt in life is that things do not happend the way you want them to and that sometimes silence is the best answer becuase it means you do not have to regret anything.
It has also made me realise that God is doing a great job in my life and i have seen that he has answered some of my prayers. I asked him to teach me to forgive people easily and forget about somethings and he has done that , i realized that even when people hurt me so badly that they make me cry , at the end of the day i will forgive them and still love them. Thats an achievement for me .
To my blogs friends , God bless you so much this year and to my small sisters and brothers who have new families , one day remember that we did not choose for you to leave because we do not like you here but because God had willed and because you needed love and care and those families were the ones that choose. We still love you and be good kids.
Moreen
Uganda

its been long since i last wrote , a lot has been happening and i have done some soul searching about my life and what i want to happen the next years. i have tried to understand every one and what they want in life and i realized we are not the same all the time, but i think thats what God wants ,me top realise.
i have busy this past week trying to visit all the women and trying to understand their needs while respecting them at the same time. Its hard working with women that are older than you, one time you are thinking about what to tell them and them you think about it and you realize that they have probably seem more in life that you have but they sit and listen to you all the same .
Its going to take me so long to accept that they are things that i can not change in life but God help me accept these.
Am also trying to see if they is a place that i can get free formula milk cos they are kids who need it badly.

i know i have takenlike ages with out writing . A lot has happened like me graduating , something i though i would never be able to do bu trust God and his ways , he helped me do that thats why i just cant stop thanking him so much.
Am sick with malaria right now but i think he is already making me better and there are days when i feel like dying cos of what is happening in the world, it just makes me sick that people are busy taking other's lives something they are not supposed to do cos no one ever created a person on this earth. Oh God open our eyes and give us wisdom to think before we do anything

Today as i sat watching a movie called war dance, i could not help it but cry, its do hard when u listend to stories form some one else's life especially times when you are thinking that you have been through alot more than them , and then you realise that you still have everything and they lost everything. Some times as i pray to God deeep in the night and as i meditate about his works, so many questions run thorough my head, why do we have to suffer so much, and here am struggling with faith and making faces at God because i did not get what i asked from but they are people who have gone thorough a lot yet they still trust in him , even when they feel they can not do it any more.
To the children of war , dont ever let anyone put you down, you are wonderfully and fearfully made by God and he knows the placs he has for you. God bless you so much and we love you everyday.

i have so far spent three days in this place. but i will say it is the best reception i have recieved so far, sometimes i fail to understand how people would be so nice to a total stranger they have never known, feed them , protect them and talk to them. its something that i fail to understand but i guess God made it that way. i know they will never know but am so grateful. God bless.

there are thing that we do in life with out thinking about how such things will hurt the other people. When we have achieved what we wanted then we think of how mean we have been. God save me that i never have to reach that extent.

To my blog friends that i pray for every day , have a blessed new year. always read phillipians 4:6. it really encourages me a lot.

chrismas was such a joyous time for me but yet reflecting. many time we forget why we celebrate chrismas and we conncetrate more on the gitfs and the food. Thank God its not a gift culture in uganda , so we concetrate more on the food. As i celebrated chrismas and new's day i took time oof to reflect and thank God for the past years. Its possible with him that i assure you.
i will be leaving for masaka on the 5th and apparently i do not see to have mixed feelings about leaving away from home for sometime.
For all my blog friends , happy new years and May God bless you and your families to the fullest.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him and he shall direct your paths. This is the verse that God has put on my heart for this year.
God bless you