The New year

Happy new year ! to my self and to every one. I guess every new year comes with hope and the yearning to do something new and different. what do i want to do different? A lot but i know all depends on God and what he wants you to do, so this year am going to be the one he desires me to be. The last year has been a hard one for me and some times i have had to make very difficult decisions but what to do when a lot is at stake. I will have to come up with more solutions to very cross- cutting issues both at work and outside work. Sometimes when a lot is going on , you wonder whether you alone are in the world. Guess some people have it easy, so i hope i h ave it easy this year.

updates

Guess i have spent like months with out writting anything at all, why i do not have a particular reason but i have just been busy. A lot has happened in the past few months , i might not even remember everything, but it is almost the rainy season and all the farmers are getting ready to plant their crops.

Work is going on with my women that i work withand i will meet them again the end of this month. We have a village bank and it is amazing to see these women come to the bank all the time to get loans, they are farmers but they are not afraid to get the loans and i have seen lives improve so much. Guess if we want change in africa, we should empower the women first , that is the way to go.

Last time i went to an HIV clinic and i saw 100 children who were positive and they had already started taking their Antiretrovial medicine , i wondered at what was happening in this country , such is a big number and they all looked calm and had accepted what ever life had given them.It hurt me so much i just did not know what to do, God we surely need a miracle , i pray that you heal all those children.

what should i say!

blogging, its been a long time! why! i dont know! life has been a little bit upside down, got sick with malaria, had busy days and had fun working with women and children, thats what i do for life. Amazing how small things change people's lives and how they appreciate the little things that you do for them, i have been busy selling baskets made by women here and at the end of the day, i will give them back the money, you should see the smiles on their faces and the questions they will ask, is this my money and you go , yes! , what are you going to do with the money , she replies , i will take my child to school or i will take them to hospital or buy them a cup of milk, these are things that we take for granted at times, but they matter a lot.
Or the smile of a child when you tell them that you now have some one to help pay school fees for you, the relief they get is not imaginable any where else, those are the things that matter most in life.
am now in masaka full time and i surely miss my friends, church and family but i have a family here that love me and cares about me a lot.

God's ways and life frustrations

The past few weeks have not been that easy for me, my friend lost a son and he died in his sleep. life is so short you never know whats coming next, that makes me wonder why we spend so much time working and yet we will leave everything. God rest his soul in eternal peace , hope to see you again some day and may he strengthen us your mums so much and may he bless us with other children that look like you. we love and miss you so much.

This week not good at all, a lot happening, have you ever wanted to say something so much but then you can not say it because when you tell people you are scared they will not keep it to them selves, thats the life i live right now, God knows how long this will have to be .
Have you ever wanted things t to change so much in life but then they do not? what would you do?
God keeps on blessing me with new friends everyday and they are really interesting people. i have a room mate who is actually not my room mate but i do not like calling her name, i have AK 47 who is so interesting and the list goes on and on

Thoughts

i usually take long to write , i dont know why, i guess i got no reason not to. ihave spent the past few days wondering why we do not appreciate the little things in life or the fact that we are that person who we are. Here am praying to God to give me a miracle about something a friedn might think is so obvious but thats life.
Too much has been happening and it makes me question why we human beings do not accept that things are wrong at time and them instead we become over protective, eventually it costs us so much that we later regret in life. people do make mistakes in life but if we dont forgive them , them why do we want to be forgiven, funny how we pray forgive us to God and we do not forgive others.
Am a kind of person who deosnot like being too dependant and too me if that happens it sucks! so i think with time to come will have to figure out some things

Life

i know i have taken so long without . sometimes you just dont know what to say to people and you wonder what you should say but then you have no answer.
it is the rainy season and oh God! there are soldier ants everywhere i just hate those tiny creatures they really suck!
i was able to spend time at church with my kids and my family at church and it was the best time i have ever spent in my life. You just cant imagine what joy i have seeing my kids move form another class and then when they see you they still remember you and say they have missed you, to me thats worth living for and loving people every day.
Life has been good and God too, he has done great things ! am singing !

Reflections

i have not written for the past weeks not because i do not want but sometimes you have to give up on somethings to gain others.
i have been busy with the women empowerment project and we are trying to set up some project that are sustainable . Very soon they are going to start a micro-lending initiative of their own, call it a small Grameen Bank. You dont know how a bank intimidates a rural woman and the fear of borrowing money from the bank but they are so excited with this idea and i cant wait to get it running.
I have been thinking of what drives me to do certain things for people and i realized its not because of me but it is the passion and compassion that God put inside me.
i have seen how love can even change the hardest of people and yah! some times it frustrating especially when you can not accept the facts about life .
i have also realized that i have responsibilities now and yah! its time to grow up , thats the way things run in africa, we grow up so early and the troubles of life wear you out so much but am not complaining .